Saturday, October 23, 2004
I try not to complain about my life because I know I have a really wonderful life and that I've been very blessed in many ways. I haven't been taken hostage by a group of Iraqi freaks. My kids haven't been held hostage in a school for a week without water. No one I love has died in a plane crash. I have a roof over my head and food to eat and clothes to wear. My husband has a job and I get to stay home with my children which truly is a HUGE blessing. Mark and I have wonderful families, Hunter is in a great school, Noah has Miss Melody, we have great friends, and three healthy happy spectacular children. Really, I shouldn't be complaining. But. . . just this once. . . .
Mark got paid yesterday and we're down to nothing today. After paying bills, buying groceries, filling the car with gas, and buying diapers at Walmart we barely have enough money to scrape by until next paycheck, in two weeks. And that paycheck is already committed to our mortgage and tithing. Our fuel tank needs filled and I don't know how I'll ever come up with $300 to fill it up. Hopefully the weather will hold out and the snow will wait until I can pull together enough money. Our TV is presently being held together by superglue and tape. Our stereo won't play cd's. We have so many "projects" around the house, I have no idea how we'll ever be able to afford them. Christmas is coming all too fast and paycheck after paycheck I sit and wonder how I'll ever be able to afford it. Our couches are starting to fray and the springs are beginning to poke in our backs. And the stress of it all--the debt, the bills, the unknowns--constantly weighs on me.
Ah well. We're young. Everyone goes through it at some point in their lives, right? I know my parents did--Mom used to run to the bank everytime they got a paycheck in the hopes that a check wouldn't bounce. And they made it just fine. With a lot of work and muddling through so will we. And really, I couldn't ask for more than what I already have--true love, 3 beautiful children, a home and the gospel. The rest will take care of itself and really doesn't matter anyway.
posted by Shana # 10:24 PM 
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