Bummer

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

With the kids out of school, I’ve been trying really hard to exercise every day. You see, I’m beginning to resemble the lovely rhino to your left. I’ve tried being easy on myself, I mean I did just have three kids in two years and I hardly expect myself to bounce right back into my size 10 jeans. And yes, that’s a size ten, not a four or a two. You see, I have very realistic expectations. I’ll never be able to squeeze one of my thighs into a size four, let alone my entire lower half. But a size 10 would be wonderful. I’d even settle for a 12. But that hasn’t happened. Nope. I’ve eaten myself into a size 14 and then a 16 and I don’t know what comes next but I’m afraid of finding out. And the saddest thing of all is that after I had the twins I actually got down to a size 12. And then I started coping with life by eating lots of junk and the rest is very, very sad history.

So back to my point, I’ve been trying really hard to exercise. And while I haven’t completely changed my diet, I’ve tried cutting back. Originally I had decided that I wouldn’t weigh myself until the end of the summer because when I do, it usually works against me. Either I lose five pounds and get excited and start eating too much junk again. Or, I don’t lose weight (or worse, gain) which depresses me and then, I eat some more to feel better. So basically, I wasn’t going to weigh myself to avoid my self-defeating behaviors. But after two weeks of hard core exercise, I couldn’t resist. So I jumped on the scale just for a peek and. . . not a pound. Not a half pound. Not a quarter of a pound. Not a bit. Nothing. If anything I’m fatter. And I’m so totally bummed. And all of the sudden I’m realizing that my body has changed. And what used to work, isn’t working anymore. And all of that junk food I love and adore, is going to have to go. I can’t drink my full sugar soda anymore. And I can’t have my bowl of ice cream right before bed. And when things get out-of-control crazy around here, I can’t down a bar of chocolate and make it all better. I really do have to go on a diet. And that is another total bummer. And maybe I’d be okay being a size 16 and eating my junk food too, but I’m so uncomfortable in my own skin that it’s affecting my self-esteem. And that’s not good.

Darn it all. I’m so totally disappointed I want to cry or at least eat a bar of chocolate. But I can’t. I just can’t. Ever. Again.

Double Good

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

Before I begin this eight month tribute to you two beautiful boys, I must offer my apologies for the lack of monthly blogs you so totally deserve. Someday when you grow up you are going to look at all these blogs and see that you have been seriously short-changed in the monthly letter department (and lots of other things). And when you discover this I want you to know that it wasn’t because I didn’t want to write you monthly letters or that I loved you less than the rest, it’s just that well. . . someday you’ll see that life gets crazy and things happen that you don’t expect, that you can’t possibly prepare enough for and as a result, you have to make adjustments. And change is the most constant thing life has to offer you–nothing ever stays the same and life is hardly ever fair. But always know that, no matter how many things change (or how short-changed you might feel or how unfair life is) I love you and that, my little men, is one thing that will never change or be short-changed. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for having more kids than I can possibly care for properly, for doing the one thing I swore I’d never do. But I’m not ever sorry for having you! Not ever.


Now, let’s get on with it–At eight months, you both are very mobile. That’s for sure. Jericho was the first to crawl, earning him the title “Crawl the Warrior King II.” Both of you have been rolling around the room for at least two months now and a few weeks ago Jericho started soldier crawling in a forward motion. You both have spent several weeks on your hands and knees rocking back and forth, just trying to get enough momentum to propel you forward. But it was Jericho who figured it out first and Justus as always was hot on his heels. “Scooter” is Justus’s newest nickname because while he may not be able to crawl as well as his brother, he’s great at scooting himself backward, right into the corner everytime. The other night Justus scooted his way inbetween the couches, under the end table and then proceeded to play with the crazy number of cords we have shoved under there. In search of his brother, Jericho crawled his way over to the end table as well and both babies played happily under the table until someone’s head got bumped and it didn’t seem so much like a party anymore.


While Jericho may have beat Justus in the race to crawl first, Justus won the race to sit alone first. I’ve known for awhile that you were really close to sitting but I haven’t been brave enough to let you try. Why? Let’s just say “sitting duck” and Caleb. I can’t leave you alone on the floor in any position with Caleb around. So far you both have been stepped on, jumped on, body-slammed, knocked over, picked up and dropped, smacked, kicked and bitten by none other than Mr. Delicious himself. He loves you. He really does. So many times he’ll lay right beside you and wrap his chunky little arm around you and kiss you. But right when we start thinking he’s finally learned his lesson, whack! And one or both of you are crying. So while I’m certain you are able to sit, I never leave you sitting alone because Caleb would find you and see “soccer ball” written all over your sweet little foreheads. But the other day while Caleb was sleeping and I was running the trash out, I left Justus rolling around on the floor with a pile of toys and Denver sitting on the couch watching cartoons. When I returned there was Justus, sitting right smack on the middle of the carpet, watching cartoons with Denver like he’d been doing it all his life. Amazing.


Along with crawling and sitting, this morning I found Jericho in his crib kneeling next to the side, pulling himself up. I suppose standing is next on your to-do lists. I shudder at the thought. You both have a favorite toy–the StrobeFX wand–and you fight over it on a regular basis. I didn’t know babies could fight but you have most certainly educated me. You have also graduated from rice cereal and food is your most favorite thing. I don’t think any of your brothers ever ate as much as the two of you. I feel like I’m constantly feeding you and it’s not because there’s two of you, cause I feed you together. It’s just that you are always hungry. I have no idea how much you weigh but you are nice and round and chubby the way all babies should be and happy too. Justus is definitely the pickier of the two of you and often refuses to eat, while Jericho happily inhales Justus’s unwanted portion.


It’s still very difficult for anyone to tell you apart, including myself which I’m very ashamed to admit, but it’s still true. Jericho has a birthmark right under his rib cage but it’s not something you can see when y’all are fully dressed.
And Justus does this scrunchy-nose, curled lip thing that Jericho doesn’t do and that’s usually the way the boys tell you apart (”Which baby is Chunk?”). But it’s not like he’s always making that face for us. Fortunately for us, your personalities are quite different and when you are together, it’s starting to get easier to tell who’s who if we just sit and watch you for awhile. Justus crawls around and we’ll usually find you sitting wherever you stop to play. Jericho crawls to a place and then proceeds to try and climb it. Justus is chunkier. Jericho is quieter. Justus has a very wide open mouth smile. Jericho usually gives us a smaller but just as jolly grin. Justus smiles readily at everyone. Jericho makes you work for your smile, but interestingly enough, Jericho laughs more easily. You both know how to clap, but only Justus responds with clapping when we sing “Clap Clap Clap Your Hands.” Jericho usually smiles at us all like “I’m way too grown up for these silly games.” Jericho dislikes the grass, Justus adores it. Justus falls alseep rather easily, Jericho fights it. But the thing that probably makes telling you two apart the most difficult is that as soon as we pinpoint a definite difference, you decide to swap places on us, leaving us baffled once again. So as always we rely heavily on pink nail polish for Jericho’s toes and color-coded pacifier straps for the both of you. I’m still thinking tattoos are a really good idea. . . .


You two are very popular everywhere we go and everyone wants to hold you and cuddle you and kiss you. I have a feeling when you hit Caleb’s age and are following him as your gang master, it will be a totally different story. I’ll probably have to pay people to take you off my hands. But for now people can’t get enough of you and I often find myself fighting off the crowds just for a chance to hold you myself. You’ve discovered each other recently and like to be together, most of the time, unless your favorite toy is involved. We recently separated you two at night. We always put you to bed on opposite ends of the cribs. But whenever one of you woke up, the first thing you’d do is creep over to your brother’s side and cuddle or climb on the other. More often than not, Jericho was the creeper disturbing Justus’s sound sleep. Anyway, since we’ve separated you, you always find each other through the slats of the cribs and from there carry on the silliest of conversations, blah-blah-blahing to each other about all sorts of important things. When one of you is crying (usually Jericho) the other will join in making just as much noise, even if he is perfectly happy, just to make sure we hear you. Oh, the noise the two of you can make when you join forces. And when there is mischief to be found, you are getting really good at finding it together. Lucky for us, we have Caleb to help us baby proof everything and trust me boys, he’s thorough. Very thorough.


And I think that about sums the two of you up. Everyone told me that the first year with twins is the hardest. And while I definitely think things have been hard (change is always hard), I don’t think you have been difficult in anyway. On the contrary–you have been quite wonderful to have around. And while I don’t always think two things are better than one, in your case I do. And I’m very glad you came the way you did, together. Happy eight months, babies! We love you!

Hunter’s Amazing Feat of Strength and Courage

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

In changing Hunter’s seizure meds he discovered that he can do this most amazing stunt and is now convinced he can do almost anything we grown ups can do. Good work Hunter but don’t get any ideas. . . .

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Look What Noah Taught Himself Yesterday

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

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Spending Time With Hunter

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

They way things go nowadays, the squeaky wheel gets the attention. That is, whatever kid is crying the most, gets the most attention. Of course, some of my kids are definitely squeakier than others, say Noah, Caleb, Jericho and Justus. Others seem content to do their own thing and hardly squeak at all, mostly Hunter and Denver. That said, Hunter has been squeaking a little more than usual this past week and it became obvious that he was needing some Mommy-time.

Now that school is out I’ve decided to replace the time I’d normally spend packing lunches and backpacks with exercise. I really want to start running again and lifting weights. I mentioned to Hunter that maybe he could join me and work on running the mile for school even faster for third grade. He seemed pretty excited about the idea. So the first two days I just didn’t feel like running and decided to lift weights instead. Hunter got up early with me and half-heartedly lifted a weight or two but I could tell he wanted to be elsewhere. By Saturday, Hunter was really itching to go walking and around 7:00am he showed up outside my bedroom door, all dressed and ready to go. I tried pretending to sleep but he continued to stand outside my door, sighing heavily, over and over again. Then I tried explaining that Saturday was my only day to sleep in and that I was really tired, but he’d having nothing of it. So I dragged my lazy rearend out of bed and we went walking.

Now, Hunter has always been my whiner when it comes to any kind of exercise and I was a little worried that we’d get a mile away from home and he’d start complaining and make the entire trip miserable. But he didn’t. He got a cramp not too long into our walk but he just kept stretching it out and moving along. The morning was gorgeous and the exercise felt so good and it was really nice to be out with Hunter, alone, chatting about this and that without a baby to interupt us. Three miles later we returned home exercised and renewed and I just wanted to hug him for his persistance and patience with me. What a great kid. We decided to keep exercising together and prepare ourselves for the Walk to Cure Diabetes this fall with the Yale Team. We’ve only done it once before but I think now is the perfect time to do it again. We’re going to hold a lemonade stand and collect donations and do our best to help the JDRF find a cure for Hunter’s diabetes. And we’re going to improve his mile-run time and get him the best A1C ever this year. We set some really great goals and I think we can obtain them, together. And maybe he’ll get me running again. How awesome would that be?

A few days ago I was playing Zelda with Noah trying to help him pass a few new levels. It’s a game I played when I was little so it brings back memories and I find it a little addicting. That, and I can play it while I hold a baby so I’m sort of killing three birds with one stone–time with Noah, happy baby, down time for me. Anyway, I was playing with Noah and not Hunter and Hunter pointed out that I never play with him and that it wasn’t fair that I was playing Zelda again with Noah. So I promised him yesterday that I’d give him an hour of my undivided attention and that we’d play Lego. So today that’s exactly what we did. And I was so, so tired and I really wanted to take a nap, but I did my best to build a fighter ship with Hunter (who built five really cool ships to my one) and we battled and battled and battled until my plane went in for a suicide mission and not only destroyed Hunter’s ship completely but also smashed his finger at which point we called it quits and went to the park. But the point is, I got to spend time with him and it was really nice. I don’t get to do that much anymore and I didn’t know it, but I miss it. He’s a really great kid and he’s mine and I’m really glad about that. Let’s do it again soon before you grow up too much and hanging out with Mom isn’t cool anymore. Hopefully that day will never come. My heart would break for sure.

Space Derby

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

So last night was the Space Derby and the wind blew and the temperature dropped and the rain fell but the rockets? Well, they soared. So much so that several were lost in trees and water, including Hunter’s. And as soon as the last rocket (Hunter’s) was launched, the wind and rain stopped and it warmed up again. So we stayed and played at the park until the park ranger demanded we leave. What a party pooper!

Cub Scouts are now on break for the summer but hopefully Hunter and I can work on a few things for September. He wants to get his chess and computer beltloops. I’m hoping we can build a birdhouse and start up a cool collection of some sort. We shall see.

There Really Are Humans Up There

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

Last night as we pulled into the driveway we noticed our neighbors out on the corner, looking up at the sky. Weird, we thought. Then the neighbor called over to the kids and asked if they wanted to see the space shuttle and the space station. That’s when we thought they’d really lost it. But we all ran over anyway and sure enough there were two very bright stars moving right in sync with each other through the night sky–the space shuttle and the space station. How cool is that? After all the news about the space station this week and then to actually see it up there. It was totally awesome. And to think, there are humans way up there. . . .

Anyway I had no idea you could even see the space shuttle or the space station when it’s way up there, but come to find out, you can! And for those of you that missed it last night, this is your week to see it. Apparently if you have a clear night tonight or Saturday, you should be able to see the shuttle. And because they’ve been working on the space station, you should be able to see that too. I checked the sight for Utah and I know y’all should be able to see it, but you’ll have to check yourself for the times and what direction to watch in. Just visit NASA and find your city. Happy Shuttle Sighting and good luck!

We Be Jammin’

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

So last night we got busy turning our thirty pounds of strawberries into jam so Hunter and Noah could share some with their teachers on the last day of school. The kids took turns doing different jobs and it wasn’t long before we were enjoying the fruit of our labor. And let me tell you, there’s nothing better than homemade strawberry jam from strawberries you’ve picked fresh from the berry patch.

Hull Master


Did you know you can hull a strawberry with a drinking straw? It’s actually very simple and quite addicting.

Puree Master


My kids hate jam with chunks, even though jam isn’t technically jam without the chunks. So we puree them in the blender. I actually prefer it this way too.

Taster Master and Sugar Master


We buy the low sugar pectin at the grocery store so our jam only requires four cups of sugar instead of seven. I think it tastes much better that way.

Dish Master


Caleb didn’t help much with the jam making process but he did do a great job entertaining himself and soaking the dishes for me. I didn’t get around to washing the pots and pans for three days so I’m glad he chose the profession he did that night and so are my scrubbing muscles.

The Jam


We’ve already given away several jars and will give away even more on Sunday. But don’t worry. We have three more batches to make and that will surely last us at least a month or two. Yum-o!

Holy Puh-lay-do!

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

Aunt Me-Me came to play today. Between the two of us we have nine kids eight and under, five of which are one and under. I suppose that’s why we’re so exhausted when we finally call it a day. At one point there were six kids playing with the Playdo–that is, six kids making a royal mess. But it appears they were all having fun and no one was crying and with that many little kids under one roof, that ain’t bad!

A Summer Must-Have for Your Recipe Box

Author: Shana  //  Category: Uncategorized

I tried out a new recipe today and it was superb! It had all the right ingredients–fast, easy and delicious! Oh and it required absolutely no heating elements whatsoever–no stoves, ovens or microwaves. So sometime this summer when it’s too hot to cook and you are too tired to do much of anything, try this out. I think you could even call it. . . healthy?!

Grilled Chicken and Black Bean Wraps
1-15 oz. can black beans, drained
1 8 oz. can corn, drained
1 small avocado, chopped
1/2 cup red onion, chopped
3 Tbsp. fresh lime (or lemon) juice
2 Tbsp. fresh cilantro leaves, minced
1/4 tsp. hot sauce (we used a lot more than that)
salt to taste
4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts*
2 Tbsp. chili powder
4 10-inch flour tortillas

In a small bowl combine beans, corn, avocado, onion, lime juice, cilantro, hot sauce and salt; set aside. Coat chicken with chili powder. Grill for 6 minutes per side or until no longer pink. Let rest for 2 minutes then cut chicken into strips. Divide chicken strips and bean mixture evenly among tortillas and roll up tightly.

*I substitued Perdue’s pre-cooked Southwestern chicken strips from the refrigerator aisle in my grocery store for the chicken breasts and eliminated the entire grilling, resting and slicing process altogether. It made the already super fast recipe even faster and I really doubt anyone would be able to taste the difference.